im going to try to be what most would call "normal" or at least not emoish. the only things not changing are my personality, best friends, and music i listen to. drawings as well.

so now what? well, i deleted the journals in which i poured out all my anger and sadness, but thank you all for your support.


NO NOT YOU MELISSA.


but, one of my favorite comments was by ~Ywy who pointed out all the things i felt about those..... well if i say it my parents might see- not to mention my sister-....maybe preps is a good word, and i do hope they realize how retarded it is to judge people like that. i hope they end up working at a McDonald's when they're older and make little money. of course, enough to have a house and whatnot, but i hope they learn their lesson.


i may tell morgan off at school tho.

so.

i want someone to draw something for me-anyone and anything- because i have many requests to work on and i realized i havent requested anything. in a long time.

maybe i can get a character in melissa's book, b/c she said i could have an apprentice or something last time i went to her house.

and if not, she gets no character in our book.

and to back my opinion, she owes me something for the six hitsugaya and-or- kadaj pics i owe her.

IN YOUR FACE.


EDIT___


BTW, i turn twelve on april 26 8D

of course i luff to steal these things >D
and they r so random................

HAPPY SPRING BREAK ALL.

and now a random stolen meme >D


















[Personal Survey Meme]

Info
[x] I am shorter than 5'4. [5'3 im really tall for my age Owo]
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes. (only wheni compare myself to others TT_TT)
[√] I have many scars.(ones big on my knee!XD)
[√] I tan easily.(pale)
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.(black)
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[√] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[√] I wear glasses.(am supposed to lol)
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[√] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[X] I have freckles.(yeah tiny ones on my cheeks and arms OwO)

Family/Home Life
[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[√] I've run away from home. (yah for 5 minutes XD)
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[/ ] I want to have kids someday. (Maybe)
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[√] I'm in school
[X] I have a job ( [link] )
[X] I've fallen asleep at work/school
[ ] I almost always do my homework. (hehe funny thing that...)
[X] I've missed a week or more of school.
[X] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.

Embarrassment
[√] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry. (hate them. cept for POTC)
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[√] I've snorted while laughing.
[√] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[X] I've glued my hand to something. (what? it was a pencil and i was bored >D)
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[√] I've gotten stitches/staples (i rammed my head into a shopping cart when i was little XD)
[ ] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[X] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[X] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[X] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada. (wish)
[ ] I've been to Mexico. (...)
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls. (wish)
[ ] I've been to Japan. (BIGGEST WISH)
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans. (uh... no.)
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.


Experiences
[X] I've gotten lost in my city. [MOM.)
[√] I've seen a shooting star.
[√] I've wished on a shooting star
[√] I've seen a meteor shower.
[√] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[X] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[X] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[X] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[√] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[√] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[X] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[√] I've played chicken.
[√] I've played a prank on someone. (er.... no comment...)
[√] I've ridden in a taxi.
[√] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. (messed up. liked)
[√] I've eaten sushi.
[√] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[√] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[√] I miss someone right now.
[X] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[X] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. (i think he didnt..)
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[√] I've had a crush on a teacher. (my old friend did Owo gym teacher)
[ ] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[X] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[√] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[√] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[√] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[√] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[X] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[√] I've been in a fist fight. (Tons)
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[X] I've consumed alcohol. (my moom had something in a mountain dew i was curious and i took a sip of beer before XD its disgusting )
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[X] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[√] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[√] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[√] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[X] I've hurt myself on purpose. (i bashed my head into a wall on purpose XD:
[√] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[X] I'm afraid of dying.
[X] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[X] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[√] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[X] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga. (That and video game like zelda i cant find fire emblem help plz!)
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[X] I own something from Hot Topic. (lol no comment)
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[X] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[ ] I can sing well. (i bet if i tried.)
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[/ ] I open up to others easily. You ask me a question I'm most likely going to answer it.
[√] I watch the news.
[√] I don't kill bugs.
[X] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[√] I curse regularly. (But only while away from family)
[X] I sing in the shower.
[X] I am a morning person. (Yah 3 in the morning)
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[√] I'm a snob about grammar. (lol)
[ ] I am a sports fanatic. (i would be good if i didnt hurt people as much
[√] I twirl my hair. ya sometimes
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat. (yeah right)
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[√] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[√] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[√] I believe in ghosts. (Within rationality, of course.)

[√] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. (ihave a lot.)
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[√] I love white chocolate
[√] I bite my nails.
[√] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates. (I'm horrible at all the above.)
[/] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (I'm torn. Which ever college I get into, at least.)

[√] All of those are answered honestly

uh, yeah. i need help with corel painter because grass ios hard and im an idiot who doesnt know how to use it. lol. so, i searched for s tutorial and ii found one but its not detailed enough. so now im stuck with a pic of zelda lying in grass that sucks whereas she looks fawesome. dont ask where i got that. (the last days... sequell to peeps... zahler? lol.)
sssssssooooooooooooooooooooooooo painter is uber besidesd that but yeah. im an idiot. Oh, by the way, the spelling bee was canceled cuz of the 17 inches of snow we got on Saturday. yeah. i dont dare to go outside cuz im cold enough without the snow.


PEACE.

oh i love tags i love tags |D

100 questions lez go....


1. First thing you wash in the shower?
uhmm lez see... i think my hair so i can wash the rest while the conditioner soaks in OwO why do you care ...

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
its gray with cheese from fosters on it! cozy <3

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
... I dont think ive kissed anyone....

4. Do you plan outfits?
ummm.... no unless people call me emo/goth/vampire/vampirate and i want them to stop but they continue anyway...

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
im bored out of my mind.

7. Who was the last person you kissed?
...

8. Person before that?
.......

10. What are you craving right now?
ice cream XD

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
salad and groossss food OwO

12. Do you make prank calls?
my sis does.

13. Ever hooked up with some one out of state?
hooked up? no...

14. Do you sleep with any stuff animals?
no

15. Would you dance to the taco song?
HECKZ YA!

16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
no i only got to 689 XD

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
i use a spoon thankuz.

18. Do you like anyone right now?
yes! hunter....

19. What do you think of crickets?
they are evil bugs that are huge and shall rule the world.

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
..... i saw that guy who can play mario on the piano w/ his eyes closed but that wasnt meeting D:

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
gross!!!!

22. What are you listening to right now?
the rasmus- in the shadows

25. Would you go sky diving?
NO NEVER EVER! unless chelsey made me <--- is a coward

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
No.

27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
yes both mashed and fries XD

28. Is there anything sparkly on you?
NEVER AGAIN.

30. Do you rent movies often?
all the time

31. Who sits behind you in your math art class?
Austin. hunter next to me, and cameon in frotn of me OwO

34. Can you count backwards from 74?
yes |D

35. Who are you going to be with tonight??
um.. my family ?

36. Brown or white egg?
White

38. Ever been on a train?
yeah, that one at disneyland XD

39. Ever told someone you loved them?
.. i say "love you mom" before i goto bed

40. Do you have a cell phone?
yup. cant use it though D:

43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
um caitly will go to school.. ill bug her chelsey too and melissa but caitlyn will glomp me she said D:

44. Ever had cream puffs?
wat?

45. Ever had Breaded Shrimp?
yes. its gross

46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
the end but yyes :scared:

47. What was the last question you asked?
me: why do you hate me chelsey?

48. What was the last CD you bought?
.................i dont know but i want a skillet cd D:<

49. What is/was your bus number for school?
bus 10

51. Is your hair curly?
its wavy (semi)

52. Last time you cried?yesterday....

53. Ever walked into a wall?
yes

54. Ever walked UP a wall?
i tried and fell...

55. Have you ever bought anything from PacSun?
no

56. Favorite time of the year?
spring cuz it rains so much

58. Favorite color(s)?
black white and red!

60. Do you have any tattoos?
i will when im older

61.Who was the last person you held hands with?
i dont know!

62. Do you sleep with the TV on?
yes and music is playin on the music channel when i do |D

63. Where was your default picture taken at?
...What?

64. Why was your default picture taken?
... what?

65. Do you like your life right now?
course i do i got good friends, good family, and lotta crap to draw XD

66. How do you feel about 'love'?
its the meaning of the world,


67. What is your favorite animal?
wolves, and bats |D

69. Do you have good vision?
heck no

70. Can you hula hoop?
yes!!! i can do it on my arms too!

71. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
at a game yes, in love no. maybe. idk

72. Do you have a job?
yes, as an art commisioner <--- making no money D:

74. What are you wearing?
my spelling bee shirt i won earlier two weeks ago and pants.. and uderwear XD

75. What does your hair look like?
long ish and light brown LOL

76. Ever climbed out a window?
in and out one XD

77. Can you handle the truth?
of course!

78. What was the most recent thing you bought?
chelsey bought me a fountain pen and slim trenchcoat! fits perfect!

79. How often do you talk on the phone?
... al ot but not like OMG BECKY GUESS WAT but more like "chelsey/melissa/caitlyn can i go to ur house tonight? moms goin to an event D:"

80. What's the longest you talked to someone on the phone?
with caitly bout 1 1/2 hours XD

81. Do you hate/dislike more than 3 people?
.... yes......

83. Are you sarcastic?
oh NO OF COURSE NOT. yes.

84. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yeah. Neal for being retarded BD he didnt mind oddly...

85. Do looks matter?
yes,to others, because i wore all black once and people were mean D: but no not really.....

86. Do you use chapstick?
i lick my lips.... and bite them...

87. Are you too forgiving?
yes...

88. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
2 zelda shirts!!!! one has link teh uber hotness on it! iwore it yesterday lol XD

89. Do you own a gun?
mom and dad do OwO

90. Have you made a prank phone call?
cheyanne has Xd she didnt know, but i t was her teacher XD

91. Have you ever been in a castle?
yahXD

92. Do you like your hair?
love it! my mom saz its a luxury to have hair like mine OwO its thick..

93. Do you like yourself?
: / sometimes yes but not really... others do though..

95. Are you more pissed off, upset, or happy most of the time.
i mask my sadness with giddiness and it makes me happy XD

96. When was the last time you talked on aim?
....... what.

MISSING 97 AND 98?
WTH????

99. What are you doing today?
im doing something, dunno what yet though!

100. Tag 5 people.
~wisewolf25 ~0BlackDragon0 ~c7few ~Noniway *Bijutsu-No-Himesama XD

i have carpal tunnel now D:

OHMAHGOD OHMAHGOD CHRISTENS STILL ALIVE. yeesh, that i am, though because of some people *cough*wisewolf*cough*blackdragon*cough* i have been in near death experiences. blackdragon threatened to push me off a bridge and wisewolf... i had to beg for mercy because i got chocolate ice cream on her hitsugaya picture.

erp.

so my TABLET is something i cannot use because my mom said so and our internet suck etc.etc. so ill have more time to work on ~Noniway and *Bijutsu-No-Himesama's requests.
i cant reply to al my messages, but i am in the process of doing so on chelsey (aka ~0BlackDragon0) 's computer, and... yeah. but i will try to get the fiddy things i ned to get done done. so at the time ill try to avoid being bricked by all my watchers for being so dumb and lazy.

but the truth is, ive been drawing a lot. buuuuttttt chelsey caitlyn and melissa (aka ~wisewolf25) say i owe them11 drawings alltogether which isnt fair cuz then i feel very used and unloved chelsey just hugged me and eww.......

kayzorz, that was the longest on hiatus (whatever that is lol) ever.

and now, a random moment involving me and chelsey.
CM:chelsey?
CH:yess?
CM: do you have any tacos here or waffles because i am starving and feeling GIRish today *sings doom song and gir dances*
CH:STOP SINGING! and ewwwwwwwwwwwwww tocos and waffel ars nasty. oh and by the way, i was going to throw you off a bridge or throw you into the street of a VARY busie road.
CM: screw you im not your friend you son of a biscuit eating bulldog.
SERIOUSLY WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THAT???????!!!!! I HATEYOUIHATE YOU I HATE YOU. AND DONT GET STARTED WITH PICKERINGTON.
CH:hahahaha, i dont remember what u did. and u know u love me. lets go get brecfest.
Kay. but i dont love you darnit. not like that ewwww................LOL CHELSEY AND MIKEY SITTING IN A TREE K.I.S.S.I.N.G.!!!!!!1